11/11/12- 16 months.....thousand years.....

The song....a thousand years.....that is how long I have loved you.....how long it feels like since you were ripped from our lives. Not a day goes by that I don't miss everything about you....your purposeful stride, the look in your eyes when you would reassure me that you would handle something- never a second thought or fear that you wouldn't follow thru. I miss the feel of your hands on my neck as you pull me close & hold me.....your strength would course thru me....my heart would beat ever stronger. The feeling of safety in knowing that you would protect me with all of your being. Words can not possibly describe how my heart feels......the emptiness is a black hole.....that no one can comprehend. Those who knew you....know how fiercely your love, devotion, loyalty & friendship were......you may not have been perfect.....but you were perfect for me !! These past 16 months have indeed been hell on earth.....I despise the torture of not having you with us and I wish with all of my broken heart that you were here.....heaven & eternity are so far away. All I can think is that each step, each moment, each day are just that much closer to being reunited with you !! Carmen my beloved man.....may you always remember that each day I think of you, how you lived and dream of the time when we will be together again.